I'm Getting Married--But Might Not Have a Wedding

In December, Rick proposed to me. It was lovely and just what I wanted.

Months later, he’s jobless due to this economy. I’m working more than is even healthy. I’m also facing the stigma of this being my second wedding...so there are all of these ‘rules’ to follow.

I wonder if I should let the economy doom everything? How is it at all possible for us to save for a wedding when we can’t even pay our bills right now? Everyone either says “you can’t do THAT” or “who cares what anyone says?”  Well, Rick wants a wedding and I want to make him happy.

But all of the sudden it’s like I’m not supposed to ever talk about or mention the few years in which I majorly screwed up my life--my first wedding, how much it cost my mother, all of that stuff.

I am sure I can do many things myself. I am psyched to be having a DIY wedding. But a venue? It just seems impossible right now. The first question is always: “What’s your wedding date?”

My answer? “A year and six months from when Rick can actually get a job.”

Sorry this is such a downer. The whole thing is apparently just something I’m not supposed to talk about. Meanwhile I go to everyone else’s weddings and will be spending about $3,000 on other people’s wedding gifts, parties, showers, and celebrations within the span of a year...and can only dream about having one of my own.