Present Tense

After my mom passed away my world changed as I know it. I feel different as a person. Alot more withdrawn. and it feels like I'm feeling my way through the dark.. with no direction and really not alot of motivation to find my way out

I keep telling myself my success will make me happy and keep me preoccupied. My sons happiness will ensure that I am distracted. But there is this nagging bitch named reality on my dick...  I think she is addicted to me. I am so present in my life right now. And, sometimes I wish I still had my head in the clouds. And sometimes when I have a small victory, it feels better realizing that was all me and not just happenstance.

Sincerely;

Desperatley Seeking Susan