Drawning Virtually

Today I am feeling exhausted. It is like I am over-stuffed with lots of thing while I actually have not had anything at all. The feeling is killing me. The whole world seems to spin fast around me untouchable and here I am standing still feeling numb. I try to shut down for a while leaving just a small open space in my mind to work on my book project but the mood has moved into another direction. It is the Facebook. My Facebook page.

Ever since I reach this new city, reside with the entire family, my social life has left me with a big zero number. All I've got is my little Facebook page that connect me to the world, and now I am suffocated by it. People are addicted to it that you hardly find anyone in these days without a Facebook page on their virtual life. How many of us not taking picture for the sake of our wall photos?

I really feel that I am getting too much of it. Not even once for every single day that I don't open my page just to see who is doing what or leaving some crazy comments to some friends' status or writing some unimportant status myself. It confuses me now because most of the people who are virtually there are basically I earn from the past, and the presence that I am currently living in a kind of dissolving, diluted with this overwhelming pages.

There is a bright blue sky out there, so many real people to reach to but most of the time I just stuck with the screen. What am I doing? The Facebook is eating my ability to talk to people. Making friends seem so much harder now, as hard as finding the real people to make friend with.

So I need a kick in a butt. Just to get me up on my feet and out to the real world. I love my Facebook page, but now it's the time for me to be in the real world. Pffh...I am just so super-exhausted!