Surprise!

What a week this has been.  My life is full of surprises.  Never say never might be my new seasonal motto.  When I think it's over and I'm ready to move on, a surprise pops up around the corner.  On Monday, I had another one bite the dust after this email argument.  Then I confide in another friend and we get into a text disagreement.  I got upset more and more after each email and text.  It was too much going on at the same time.  It was a terrible and emotional day.  Then later on that night, I speak to another friend and he brought many smiles to my face and make me forget about my bad day...until he said that he met a new female friend.  I was crushed.  He is my long distance guy friend that if I were in the same city we would be together.  So I have this hope way in the back of my mind that I will move back and we will be together.  So when someone else comes in the picture, my hope starts to fade away.  So Tuesday rolls around and I was ready to accept that I lost another friend and move on.  Out of no where I get this text from an ex saying "I know you may not reply but I want to see how you are doing and I've been thinking about you." What! I thought I would never hear from him again.  I deleted him from my life the same day I broke up with him.  Then we texted back and forth for the rest of the day and night.  The good thing is I don't have feelings for him so it's harmless, right?  Forgive but don't forget I guess.  Next thing I know, we are planning a weekend trip in June.  Where did that come from?  I really want to go to San Francisco and San Diego and need someone to go with.  We actually planned to go before we broke up.  So what does it hurt if we go as friends?  In the mist of all this, the friend that bit the dust sent me an email as if nothing happened a few days ago.  WTH?  There was no apology or anything in that email.  I was insulted and hurt so I was not just back to normal, let's go get a drink yet.  So we emailed back and forth about my feelings and so forth and she still didn't understand the common courtesy couple rule (no PDA, sitting close, holding hands, etc in front of other people especially when it's just me).  She thought that it was not normal for me to not want to be around her and her boyfriend.  I dropped it.  Fast forward to the evening and I get a casual email from my on and off friend whom we just had a little bump in the road a week ago too.  When I thought it was all said and done, I was wrong much to my surprise.