So, after weeks of seeing my facebook friends generate "status clouds" (bubbles of words you repeat alot, varying in size by most used) I gave in and pushed the button. Actually, I did more than that, I became interested in the things I've said over the past  month and year and created a status cloud for each option.

I wasn't suprised to find a few friends names repeat often, or variations of the word "miss", because I've been seperated from my boyfriend for almost 5 months and my friends back home for almost 4 months.

I also wasnt suprised to find multiple refrences to homework and papers, as I am going to school, and its a big part of my life. BUT. There were way too many. I need to teach myself that school and homework and aren't everything. I want to learn to seek out other things, to find joy in small things and to make time for breaks with friends and family.

I was suprised to find that I made frequent use of words like  "hate" and  "dread". I want to change this. I don't want to go around always dreading various things. Each day is special, and has a reason. I want to be able to relish in the specialness of everyday, even if I have a paper due, an exam, cleaning to do or its *gasp* a Monday. I want to cherish the things I like and love. And not focus so much on the ones I don't.

Let's see if I can not only change my status cloud results, but my attitude as well.