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Sara Conrad

Editor, skirt! Jacksonville

I grew up in the San Francisco Bay Area. I love thinking and talking about feminism and writing for skirt!. I went to the University of Iowa and I'll put up a good fight about spelling. ...

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Insomnia attack

nightmares in the waking hours

Last night I had the worst bout of insomnia since college. It could have been that nap that I fell into at like 7 after cozying up to my new book on my living room couch. I didn’t even know I had fallen asleep until I woke up at 9:15...and then I was very much awake until 1:30 am. The funny thing is, while I was lying awake--my eyes too droopy to read and my body too proud to exercise at midnight--I thought, with all these stupid, random thoughts rushing though my head, I could make one fantastic worry-list. And then it came to me...why, when I see the dark at the end of this tunnel and finally wake up, I get to blog about this frettful experience.

So again, for the second day in a row, I give you a list of things I thought about for over 2 hours while lying utterly alone and awake:

* I can’t wait until my apartment is finally clean. I should really vacuum more often. Like, once a week would be ideal. Optimal. Do other women vacuum once a week? Or is it more like once a day? Do guys ever vacuum at all?

*I should definitely clean out the cat box. In fact, I should do that right now. No, I’m suuuper tired. Omigosh, I totally forgot to start the dishwasher. Dammit. Now I have to wash out that pan before I make myself that yummy omelet tommorrow morning. I hate washing dishes in the morning. I always feel like I’m rushing as it is. Wow, I can’t wait to have that omelet, though. I am sooo hungry. I wonder if I should eat. No, I’m really tired.

* Where are my cats? Usually at least Snickers is on my pillow. I didn’t let her out, did I? I hope I didn’t lock her out on the patio again.

* If I can get to sleep now, I will be a writing machine tomorrow. I’m going to get like everything done tomorrow. 

* I really need to update my wardrobe. I’m going to learn  to sew and then I’ll just make my own fabulous clothes. Tomorrow. Tomorrow I’ll pick up some patterns.

*I could really pimp out my apartment if I had like unlimited spending power at Urban Outfitters and West Elm. I could seriously pimp this place out. Like put up some cool canvas paintings, patterns stretched on canvas, really cool organizing cubes for all my clutter. I’m always cluttered. I need to simplify. Actually, I bet I could totally paint some things myself. Tomorrow I’ll go to Reddi Arts and pick up some paint brushes. I already have that acrylic paint that I’ve been saving for like ever. How come I never paint anymore? Seriously, I need to pick up a brush.

*Speaking of never painting anymore, I totally need a writing corner. Virginia Woolf was right. I have like 3 rooms of my own in this apartment, but no corner of my own to write in. I can get one of those cool arm chairs and set it next to my window. Maybe get some guazy red curtains. A kick ass novel has to come out of that environment.

*Okay, let’s do a creative exercise: if I could design my apartment with no limitations, how would I do it? What colors would I use? I think blue, red, and pink. I’ll start with the living room...

about then I nodded off to sleep. I guess I better go to Reddi Arts today. That painting convo with myself is getting pretty old.