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Pamela

I attempt to teach high school English to the unwilling.

I am approximately 35....ok, for sure 35 years old, with two beautiful spawn, ages 3 (drama daughter) and 5 (little tank), and a magnificant husband. I teach high school English, and have supposedly maintained my sanity in the process. I enjoy reading, lots of music, traveling and wine. That sounde...

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For Freddy

this is personal

Freddy, at this moment, you are enjoying your last hours of kindergarten. I, on the other hand, am considering drinking heavily tonight, and maybe well into tomorrow. I’m not sure how it happened, or where I was while you, my serious little thinker man, were fast-trackin’ it to big boyhood. I don’t live my life unaware, and am often left to think that sometimes I am TOO aware of “things”. I can’t decide that if regret at the end of one’s life for moments taken for granted is worse than knowing every second, of every day, that life passes in an instant. Is ignorance bliss? I used to think not......

I know that each event that occurs in our lives, whether prompted by our own actions or granted by the universe, is a teaching moment, with us as student , teacher, and sometimes both. For this I am thankful. You have taught me more about life and myself in five short years than I  gleaned from the lifetime before you. I pray that I never take your devotion and passion for granted,and that always I hold your hand, guiding you to the starting line of your life. You are a generous soul and forever my hero. Be proud of who you are, never afraid as long as you are being true to yourself. It’s okay to be the smart one. It’s okay to NOT throw a ball really hard, or kick it so that it goes in just so, and it’s okay to love other things. Just find SOMETHING that you love, then chase it with your whole heart, for the rest of your life. You make me proud every second you breathe.

I don’t feel like being the universe’s student today, but it feels like I don’t have a choice. It is all bittersweet.....Good job little man.