All This Doubt Can Kiss My .......

I hate when I feel good about myability to do something and then doubt comes with it's ugly a$$ face and tries to ruin things.  What a hater!  But I am over it.  Doubt has gotten in the way one too many times and enough is enough.  How many times can I possibly let the same moron interfere with my creativity and make me feel like a fraud?  I should not be going down this path again. 

I am scared.  Being a successful writer scares me.  Right now I think I am a pretty good writer.  Can my craft use some work?  Hell yea! Is my grammar great?  Hell no!  But I do think I am talented and I think working on my craft could possibly bring greatness out of me one day.  But then what happens?  I become this great, successful writer and what happens after that? Do people expect more?  What if I can't produce? Or, even worse - what if I produce something that I think is great only to find that the rest of the world disagrees? That would be tragic.

Crap!  Is doubt really sneaking it's way into my freakin' blog as I type i?.  Seroulsy!? Wow!  Talk about persistent. Now, if only I could be as persistent with my craft.  Well, despite my recent publication rejection and my moment of sadness I am going to pick my a$$ up and start writing and submitting more stuff. It's really the only way to send doubt a very clear message that I really don't care what it thinks - I am moving forward and the world will hear my voice.