I'm not good at these things, but she's amazing

Today one of my friends is having a double mastectomy after being diagnosed with breast cancer last month.  She's a strong woman with determination to beat this cancer and I know she will.  It's just that I have the overwhelming feeling that I have not been a good enough friend.  I don't deal with these things very well, but then again who does?  

It was scary enough when my grandmother was diagnosed with breast cancer and had one breast removed a few years ago.  But now to have a friend my age battling this disease, well it's almost too difficult to comprehend.  The other day she was asking me if I've had a mammogram and being 34 I haven't.  And she said since it runs in my family, I probably should-- adding that she wasn't trying to be one of those preachy people.  So here she is, facing up to six hours of surgery (she's having the reconstructive surgery done at the same time) and she's concerned about my health.

And here I am writing this blog and having said nothing very helpful to her personally, except let me know if you need anything.  What can I possibly say or do to help?  And lately I've been too busy struggling to not wallow in my own self pity about being out of my condo, being sleep deprived from working two jobs and never having enough money to pay the bills.  When crappy things happen to me I try to remind myself that other people have worse problems or face bigger challenges.  

Well, today is one of those big reminders.  So please keep my friend in your prayers.

Stylishly yours,
Miss Attitude

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