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viewsYou Should be Writing...But I'm NOT!
By Macdaddy Mel, Thursday, March 11, 2010, 4 commentsOkay, so I followed my dad’s direction (and mine, too) and committed myself to begin writing again. But, guess what!? I’m not writing! I’m dabbling. My problem is what it has always been, inspiration. It’s incredibly frustrating right now and patience is not something I have. It always seems I can do my best writing when I’m really down. I can sit for hours and knock out page after page. But I’m not down. And honestly, I don’t want to be. Shouldn’t I still be able to come up with something? I know, I know, look around you, there’s so much to talk about it. Look at what’s going on in our world, in my own life, blah, blah, blah. Well, yea, there’s that. There’s also the opinion (mine to be exact) that it’s just not worthy of being put down on paper. Yes, there are books out there that will help you with your muse, but pardon me for saying so, but if it’s an inspirational book to give you ideas on inspiration, is it really inspiration? I think not.
Some people daydream about being skinny, wealthy or in love, but not me. Okay, maybe the being skinny part. I daydream that someone calls me every morning while I am at the gym and leaves me a message with a topic of the day to write about. Sad, I know. I just daydream about being inspired. Once I come up with an idea, it flows freely. But coming up with that idea, well, let’s just say no one is calling and leaving me that message! So what’s a girl to do? I can’t refer to it as writer’s block, since I don’t call myself a writer. I guess I’m just blocked!
So, here’s what I’ll do. I’ll keep writing. That’s the only way I’ll ever become a writer, right? Whether it’s stupid, mundane, sad, controversial or just about my uber crush on Jonathan Rhys Myers (The Tudors), I’ll just keep at it. I have to. Did I mention in previous blogs that I’ve given myself a little over a year to make a go of this? I’ve found the best way to do just about anything is to give my procrastinating self a deadline. Next fall, my youngest will start kindergarten. That’s my deadline for being able to call myself a writer (still working on that definition, too!). If I can convince my husband to let me stay gainfully unemployed until then, and I’m not successful, I will begin looking for a 9 to 5. And my motivation is strong, because I really don’t want to do that. Who does, right? But until then, I’m going to keep checking my messages, just in case!
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Girl, don't pressure yourself. When an idea pops into your head run with it. Untill then just relax and allow your mind to roam.
Relax, breath
I know this battle all too well. I was just laid off my full time job in December and I thought, Great, time for me to buckle down and become the writer I always wanted to be. Here's the thing, writing is hard. Takes structure and discipline. If you truly love it, and it sounds like you do, give yourself time. Let yourself breathe and get into it. Don't put a deadline on yourself. Cause listen up, you ARE a writer because you write. It's not about making a career of it, it's just about doing it. What I did was give myself goals each day and each week. Sometimes my little writing goal takes all day, sometimes no time at all. Point is -- I felt satisfied. Because I put a goal out there for myself and met it. Write a little bit every day. I started with about 5 minutes a day, a sentence a day. It will become easier. I promise you.
You are a writer
Quit struggling with definitions! I have read your blog posts and you don't give yourself enough credit. You are a writer. I still have my day job which has nothing to do with writing, and because of the nature of my work I can't really use it as fodder for my writing. Even so, I do consider myself a writer. Writing is still a new thing for me. I haven't had a paying gig yet, but I am determined. I started a blog with Skirt to give me a place to practice my skills and write about subjects that are meaningful to me, hoping others might feel the same. In order to be a writer, you need to think of yourself as one, otherwise that lack in confidence will shield you from success. You have talent. believe in it.
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You all are wonderful! Thank you for the continued support. I hope my confidence will one day match my desire, but until then, thank you for the uplifting replies. I do treasure them!
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