I said what?

I'm reading Cormac McCarthy's "Blood Meridian" on the stairmaster this morning at the gym, this beautifully, terrifying, horrific story about "the kid" and his journey through the south during the 1850s and the horrifying acts that took place during that time on the Mexico-Texas border.

I'm reading about how they walked for days and days with no food except maybe some dry beans they found, no water unless they got lucky, they're covered in sand, no horse left because they died from heat, starvation and exhaustion and they're walking past dead animal carcases, dead babies, scalped white men ... I mean it's disgusting.

Next thing I know, "I bet it's a great way to lose weight," I say to myself.

"What the fuck?" I fire right back at my subconcious.

I mean how could I possibly think something like that while reading what I'm reading.

Really, Eren? I mean really?

You're reading about how HORRIBLE the circumstances are and you're thinking about how good it would be to shed a few pounds.

Man, and here I was thinking the Indians, Mexicans and white soldiers that were inflicting all this brutality on one another were sick people, but it turns out, I'm just as sick, if not more.

I mean of course I wouldn't scalp somoene, or kill them for their horse, but apparently I'd torture myself through the deserts of the American south-west in order to lose a couple pounds.

What kind of a massochist am I?

I was just appaled at my own insane logic and I had to share my random thought for the day.

The book though is incredible, though. It's VERY graphic, and gross in some spots, and just horrifying in others, but it's like a car crash and you can't stop reading because you want to know what happens next and if this kid is going to make it out, or what he's going to have to eat to survive ... the writing is genious. Obviously.

But now I'm off to enjoy this beautiful day and try and convince Verizon to give me a new cell phone. No walking in the desert to lose a few pounds today, although I'm sure it would be a good day for it!