Thought Dump: Breakdowns, Food, Glee and Boys

I’m going to do something I like to call a “thought dump.”  You know when you have all of these unrelated thoughts swirling around in your head, and you feel like you can’t function well until they come out?  That’s when it’s time for a thought dump!  So here goes:

1)      I had a mini-breakdown tonight.  It was a combination of that time of month, lots of family visiting, a case of laryngitis, and a door accidentally being slammed in my face that pushed me over the edge.  It happens…

2)      I need to remind myself not to look at food blogs at night.  I get way too excited and then I can’t sleep.  You know when you’ve started a new way of eating (or a “diet,” if you choose to use that word) and you feel kind of restricted by what you can’t eat, and then you find all of these awesome recipes that allow you to eat the things you want to eat, but in a healthier and still delicious way?!  It’s so exciting!!!!!  I can’t dream too much, though, cause I’m slightly limited budget-wise on the food items I can buy, but hopefully that will change eventually…

3)      The Glee Project is a wonderful show.  It’s like Glee, but real.  It’s so inspiring to see these kids following their dreams and the relationship dynamics are so interesting.  It’s going to be so cool to see the winners make their debut on Glee.

4)      Last night I had a repeat of something that has happened to me many times.  I went out to an event, met a guy, found him cute and funny, latched onto him mentally like a leech, then had my high hopes come crashing down to the floor when I realized that the fact that “we had a connection” was all in my head.  In the past it was worse.  I would do crazy things, like flirt up a storm or plead with the guy to call me.  I am proud to say that I no longer act crazy, but what’s going on in my head is a different matter.  It’s not a good feeling.  It makes me feel so desperate.  I mean, I pride myself on not feeling like I need to be with someone, but the minute I meet a guy who’s cute and pleasant, I completely change my tune.  I think it’s just a sign that I really need to get out more.  If I was less of a homebody and I went out and met cute, nice guys on a daily basis, I wouldn’t feel so desperate, right?  I’d just think, “Ah, this fella is nice, but I’ll meet another great one tomorrow.”  What a nice thought.  This guy is great, but I’m going to meet plenty more.  My goal is to make that statement true.  That means getting my booty out of the house and to as many interesting events as possible.

I’m sure there are more thoughts, but I’ll leave it there.  Until the next thought dump! :)