I have a date!

I have a date! No it is not the type of date you are thinking of, though maybe that would be fun too. I have my court date to finalize all of this craziness is November 29th and I will officially be a free woman! I am nervous and excited all at the same time. Leaves me feeling like it really is going to be time to move on, to pick up the pieces that I have created out of my life and start rearranging them until they look right. It is time to start making pictures out of my life and to find out what makes me tick.

Sometimes my life reminds me of the one part in Runaway Bride where she finally sits down and tries all the different kinds of eggs to discover what sort of eggs she really likes. She figured it out, she figured out what she liked. And while eggs are certainly not some core part of your inner self, the knowledge of your likes and dislikes is huge. So I sometimes feel a bit like her, like I am sitting down at a table full of eggs trying to figure out my favorite. It has been so long since I have made decisions entirely for myself. Actually this could be the first time in my life. I was so naïve and immature when I got married at 18. Fresh out of my parents home I moved in with my newly wed husband. I never lived on my own, I never had to deal with life by myself and I never fully developed who I was. Now I am getting to be thrown into doing this, figuring out myself, figuring out what kind of eggs I like.