At A Loss for Words

Why do I feel like I have nothing important to write about? 

When I first started this blog, I said I was going to write at least three times a week.  And for quite a while there, I was doing pretty well at keeping that goal.  Sometimes my blogs were insightful, other times funny, and yet other times thought-provoking.  And even when it felt like I had nothing to say, I still found something to write about.  But lately, I feel not only as if I don’t have anything to say, but when I do write, it feels a bit unimportant and I think to myself, “Who wants to read this, besides my mother?”

 I try to go on sites such as Yahoo!, Linked In, even watch the news to get ideas about what to write, and sometimes it works out really well for me and I end up writing a ton about a great topic.  But other times I am simply at a loss for words, and so instead I just write nothing.  And this doesn’t bode well for me in my dream to become an aspiring author either because I have yet to finish my book, or even do some serious writing on it.  I’ll admit, I had a bit of a breakthrough a couple months ago, and I wrote about 20 pages worth of story.  But since then, I haven’t really been motivated to write and I’m not sure why.  I still love to write, although lately it seems I love to read more but that might just be because I absolutely adore my Kindle Touch.  And I still have dreams of one day writing for a magazine company, maybe starting my own blog, and of course, finally finishing my book. 

Maybe I just need to straighten up, stop procrastinating and start off small by becoming a freelancer.  Not only will that give me some great experience, not to mention a nice chunk of change, but it will also force me to push myself and put me one step closer to reaching my goals.  And writing freelance is something that I can do from home as well so whenever I do leave my current job, I’ll still have a way to earn money.  I know this isn’t the first time I’ve said something like this, and it certainly won’t be the last.  And it’s not as if I haven’t taken steps to become a published writer, I just haven’t taken that last step needed, sending my work in for approval.  It’s possible I could be scared of rejection, although it’s not as if I haven’t been rejected before.  And I must admit, I’m not good with constructive criticism although I’ve gotten better since going to college.  I’m not sure where the answer lies, but I’m certain that if I don’t do something more, my dream is never going to come true.  And trust me; that would most definitely be a shame because I’ve got some great stories to tell.