I work out to angry music

I started to workout on a regular schedule this month (down 4 pounds, woohoo!) and I've noticed I tend to forward through the happy/upbeat dance tracks on my ipod and leave it on the more anguish ridden and seriously pissed off songs. I guess if it works, it works, right?  But am I angry? Maybe so...angry that my 20's were wasted on someone that was so not worth it? Yep. Am I angry that I've been working for 10 years in the same profession but people still go to my male counterparts for the answers to their technical questions? Yep. Angry that if I choose to have a family, my value in the workplace is diminished...YES. Angry that selfish people win...yes. Angry that I have an impractical crush on a co-worker that has an extremely attractive and much younger girlfriend...maybe. Ick, I've said too much. I was generalizing anyway... I am mostly happy, not angry.

I'm excited for the new year despite the less than positive expectations for the economy. I'm glad my arthritis has been almost non-existent the past 3 months. Last year I decided I wanted 2009 to be quiet, it was much quieter than previous years so mission accomplished I suppose. I would like 2010 to be fun, happy, simple, beautiful, strong. I'm not much of a resolution maker. I make short term goals to lose weight or make my lunch more often or to swear less, those kinds of things. I'm more of a theme person. Last year quiet, this year strong. The day job situation promises to be a challenge in 2010. My own personal career goals (the online shops) will also be a huge challenge but I am up for it and ready to get out there.

I've come to accept that I'm a late bloomer, so what. I am sure the angry music will be helpful in the coming months, I can work through my issues while I work out. It's going to be a good thing.