Let Go!

When I was 20 I thought that I wanted to be married by the time I was 25. Once I turned 23 I realized, there's no freeking way I want to be married by then. All too often I make lists. Lists of things to buy at the grocery store, checklists consisting of picking up dry cleaning and depositing checks, and then the mother bear of them all...lists of how I want my life to go. Get married at 25, have a kid when I'm 30, travel to Europe, Australia, Italy, start my own boutique after graduation, graduate from College of Charleston with a bachelors in Art History (not necessarily in that order). I'm not talking about a bucket list, oh no, I'm talking about how I want my life to go, step by step.

But after living, loving, and learning, I've realized that making lists will only hurt me, not help me. I'm famous for playing out how different scenarios should go in my head, then get disappointed when it doesn't work out JUST the way I planned. Who wants to live like that? Rarely do things work out the way I plan them, so why live my life being disappointed 80% of the time? My new resolution is to just let go. Of course I still have goals (open a clothing boutique which also sells local art, travel to Europe, Australia, Italy) but I'm not so concerned that they happen exactly when I want them to. I want to be able to really live in the moment and enjoy life, without being worried that I can't speak French fluently yet. Besides, half the fun is being surprised by life and seeing where it takes you. You never know where you just might end up.