Donna Martin Graduates!

Today I was mean.

To myself, of course. Maybe a little "bitchy" to Randy.

I lacked patience, failed to encourage or recognize that the process of beginning a new path takes one step at a time.

Babies don't run marathons and I can't create AND execute a solid business plan in 3 hours. Instead, I wander and drift from website to website. I stumble across startupnation.com and ladieswholaunch.com, ask a few folks on LinkedIn if they'll accept my invitation and find a few inspirational companies in the field of my choice. I read a few great Skirt! Blogs and selfishly found myself in my own rut of not much to say.  

I finished reading "Do What You Are" and come to find out am considered "an Idealist," or an "ENFJ," which means: Extraverted, Intuitive, Sensing, Thinking. In short, my focus is on human potential and having a career that is personally meaningful rather than simply routine or expedient. This book will offer you incredible insight.

My eyes glaze over just before 5 o'clock - just in time for another Beverly Hills 90210 re-run. Sometimes it's easier to live through Donna Martin's tough decision. Should she or shouldn't she sleep with David Silver?

So there I was today, with my half eaten dark chocolate bar and SoapNet..and my life's plan.

Plan. Now there is a funny word.

If you Google (or as I like to call it Geegle just to keep people on their toes) the definition of plan, you will see the following: have the will and intention to carry out some action; a series of steps to be carried out or goals to be accomplished.

I am planning our wedding, yes. I am also doing a lot of reading and have a stack of books waiting to be read. I plan on getting to those and the ones that don't interest me anymore go back on the shelves. I've started small projects and then put them away when I can't stand it anymore (cleaning out our office/den). I find myself in and out of the kitchen a lot. At least today I did. Why do we open the cabinets for a second or third time knowing that the Kashi cookies were devoured last night? Why don't the pans with the leftover eggbeaters just magically clean themselves?

Where was I? Oh yes, planning. Starting to sound like a good lil desperate housewife, aren't I?

Tomorrow I plan on being kinder to myself. I plan on reminding myself to take things one hour at a time in order to finish what I start. Jillian's DVDs take me an hour and you know what she says about taking time for yourself - no matter what you've got going on. Tomorrow I plan on spending a good couple of hours at the bookstore to do more reading on business plans. I plan on reading more Skirt! blogs and give a comment or two. It's always nice connecting this way. I plan on giving myself permission to be okay without "a real plan."

Like Donna Martin, I too graduated and will earn my Master's sometime in 2011. I'm on summer break for God Sake's!!! 

Now I plan on having a career in life. With a little less TV and another box of Kashi cookies.