"For those of you who don't know..."

a retraction is when a newspaper takes something back. This newspaper would like to retract certain statements in a certain notebook which may have hurt certain people's feelings.”

Ya see, that’s me right there. Ever to be pegged the Harriet the Spy of the group, no matter what.

I’d like to try and introduce myself to you all. I’m a loud, sometimes brash (!!) and extremely outgoing writer from Virginia Beach who just wants to make it on her own terms, to weather all the storms of life thru my own life-long training to become a smart person.

I’m a pop culture fanatic who’s obsessed w/ trivia but loathes questions.

I love to laugh, esp @ other people’s expense, so don’t get upset by my lack of sympathy over certain things. I’m a complete and total dick, but I DO have a heart. Not exactly the Grinch, but I really dgaf.. I’m not trying to sound edgy or anything, I’m just a sick individual w/ a knack for storytelling. It doesn’t HAVE to be so harsh, I realize that, but it also wouldn’t be me. I won’t go all-out, but I could never hold it all in. Containment leaves me in a state of disarray like no other. I’ve got to break freeeee!!

I’m part Patrick Bateman, part Tyler Durden, part Idgie Threadgoode, and as reluctant as I am to admit this, part my mother. Passion is my passion, and obsession is my biggest obsession. Does that make sense? In this day and age, does it really have to??

I looooooove to stretch words, esp lyrics. I feel it helps me emote. So if you do read my blogs, don’t think my keyboard is broken and I’m just too lazy to delete the shiiiiii don’t want to curse, damn this place! Haha, j/k.

Uhh, oh good lord.. Music?? FANATICAL. Silverchair is the greatest band in all the land, IMO. And by that I mean I dgaf what you say about them, just don’t say it to me, k?? Thanks, preeeeesh. I love to quote my favourite lyrics in blogs, and I def have a tendency to use lyrics as post titles. Usually when I start off w/ a quote, I use “’s, lol.

One of my biggest obsessions passed away this year. NO, not Heath f**king Ledger, but Brad Renfro. Starting way back when ‘The Client’ was released, I have been oooooobsessed w/ him. Not like, “OMG he’s soooo hot, I love his movies!” but uhh.. Hm. Try ‘swimfan’, or ‘The Crush’ haha. That would’ve been me, all the way. I would’ve been his Penny Lane, forever and ever amen. But as it stands, William Miller more closely identifies w/ who I really am. In my adolesence I was the kid @ all the shows, meeting all of the bands and snatching autographs whenever I could. I love being that person, but I’ve always wanted to see life on the other side of that spectrum. Unfortunately, my paranoia, insecurities, and w/e other random instances life decides to throw @ me have hindered my ability to accomplish said goals.

I want to be able to do things for my family, even tho seem to hate me. My brother (20) has been in and out of jail, and I just found out last Friday that my sister (17) is pregnant. My mother and I go @ it like no other, and I pretty much want to give up except for the fact that I’m DYING to please her/shut her the f**k up. If it weren’t for those pesky bothers, I would be out like shout, not giving a damn about any of them. I haaaaaaaaate the fact that my siblings are put on a pedestal, while a bitch can’t even get a thank you for helping her RAISE THOSE F-N HEATHENS.

Whatever, I’ll get over it (neeeever, I mean I’m 26) eventually, and my MOTHER will get over herself. I hope.

Uhh.... I dunno, don’t think I have anything else to say, kinda takes the magic out of everything. I’ll let you figure the rest out over time.